I......don't know what to say.....

I have a crush on One. There, I said it. I just don't know what to say cause One might being reading my blog right now and I'm afraid of giving any hints about him except how nice he is to me. I really want to hug him, Lydia even urged me to hug him one day in class, but I'm to much of a chicken to do it... I know something about him, no I don't know, I suspect. Along with Lydia and Kayleigh, they are very observant over me. Like my guardian angels, so thank you my fawesome friends!! I also want to thank-- wait...this is like I'm giving a speech after getting an award...but I do thank One for being so kind to me. I think its karma or something else... I got to figure this out. I mean, I'm actually excited about coming back to school cause I get to see One there, what is wrong with me???

I am going to the Great Wolf Lodge tomorrow, for two days with my family! Sense none of my friends could come with me, my great friend and cousin will be joining me, so I won't be so lonely! I also hate Domino's pizza, I get sick after I eat their pizza, I woke up at 3 in the morning because I was farting my ass off and I needed to really throw up. That sucked like HELL, I am now feeling better cause I found the secret to make me feel better. Water and dried toast. Thank you dried toast!! I am now going to listen to Led Zeppelin and play with newly bought silly putty.

I like kittens, but this one is a scary fucking cat

This kitten (names Mittens) is frigging scary, really scary

That is a really messed up kitten. I don't know where these guys get their ideas, but there fucking awesome.

I am now starting to read the Lovely Bones, great book by the way. I just got it yesterday and I'm already on chapter 8; its kinda crazy how the story is seen through a dead girls eye's. The author has some real depth.

I really want 2 know if anyone else is reading my blog except Lydia when I ask her if she will read it. If you are reading this post, please leave a message or a note. I feel like no one reads my blog and I'm posting for nothing, and I want some meaning for my blog-posting. Its almost making me wanting 2 delete this one and start another about a topic that other people (that would read it) are interested in.

Its been awhile

I am now grounded by my dad because I have 1 D in school, 1 fucking D in school. I had more D's last semester than I do this semester, and all he did was hound me on homework. What the hell?!?!?! I try my best, but my parents except me to become a child prodigy over night because I'm in spectrum and plays the clarinet. WTF?!?! I can't do that in one day, I really do try, I really do. So I am now blogging behind his back, I'm just so stressed, I can't even hangout with friends until I turn that D in science into an B+ or at least an A-. I can't do that in a week! I know what the title of my blog says, but right now I don't feel :), i feel :((. I really do feel like that; but some good things came out of today, I got two lollipops from Nat, I'm with my aunt, I'm listening to Queen and I got a new book, which is fawesome! Heres the song:

The song makes me happy, but this video was the only one of this song that allows me to embed, so sorry people! I had a better video, I couldn't put it in my damn blog. >:/ hmph. Please enjoy this song.

I also really wanna perform this spirit guide contacting spell, but I don't have the supplies I need in order to perform it, which incredibly sucks ass. Cause I don't know what my guide looks like, and I really wanna meet him/her. Maybe you, my great friends, could help me get these supplies:

1: Alter candle (I might be able to get that)

2: Day candle (I can so do that, but that depends on the day)

3: 3 violet candles, and 3 white candles

4: Athame (a type of knife)

5: Clear glass of water (I can sooo do that)

6: Incense: anise, cardamon, and coriander

7: Oil:jasmine, lemon, rose, and sandalwood

8: Bathing Herbs: cinnamon, frankincense, myrrh, and sandalwood

Ya.....So contact me if you get any of that stuff please

Beware of Interviews

I warn you, interviews can cause anxiety, but this interview is different. I would also like add that I'm going to make special posts call the WTF posts, where there are videos that just make no sense, at all. So here is a scary interview and a video that makes me think WTF

This is the weird video 1


This is weird video #2

Freaky, right?

I Have Notice Something

I have notice that I really don't need to make blog posts because the only people that read my blog are the two friends who I keep the most contact with; but I will keep posting because then I can entertain my friends who read this blog.

Also, I'm feeling depressed, and I really don't know why either. I'm feeling confused about some of my feelings (the romantic feelings for my crush who is un-named) I think I just lost them, I am now without a crush. I don't think its actually liberating, it really just makes me feel empty inside. I think I can stay without someone to dream about romantically for awhile, but not to long. I wanted you fawesome people to hear the Sailor Moon theme song, part of the beginning of the video is the one I know really well, the rest, I don't know so much about cause its a different season.

Please enjoy! And now for the question of the post! XD:

What theme song from a movie or tv show is your favorite?

WTF

As my title says, WTF

What the hell??? Thats weird, and theres a firefly flying around the dude's ass in the video while hes walking around.

Lollipop Frenzy Faze

I stayed home today cause I'm to sick for school. Ya, take that school, I'm to sick for you! I took a serious nap and now I'm listening to this fawesome song that is kind of sweet, so here is is:

Don't you like it? So something happened to my Sims2, it crashed, kinda, only the store edition(which is weird) and I can't play my families, I really hope when I try it again, it works. Oh, just to add to the video I found; DO NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES, SHOULD YOU WATCH THE "We are golden" VIDEO, IT WILL SCARE YOU! I know that you will watch it since I told you not to, its human nature. I bet school is out now and I'm going to try to work Sims2.

And now for the question of the post!:

What scares you??

I'm Going Crazy If this Song Plays in my Head to Long

I have a new happy song for me, this song gets me happy when I hear it. Listen and enjoy!:

This is a great song if you listen to it long enough, but if you are a unhappy dark person, don't listen!!! I want to listen to this song as much as I can cause I'm sick, and my sweet Aunt is trying to make me feel better. So I will say this,

THANK YOU

AUNTIE

I LOVE YOU!!!!

I know she doesn't read my blog, but I still want to say it. I hung out with Astrid's friends (Astrid is one of my friends I probably didn't mention) and it was fun. A guy named Ben did jokes from Monty Python And The Holy Grail that I got the first time since I watch more of that (and find it funny) then a lot of the girls at the table I sat at for lunch. Ben acted out as the Dark Knight when the Knight's arms were cut off. Ben tried to bite people while saying "Its but a flesh wound" in a great British accent, also saying "I'll kick you!" It was hilarious! And to add to today; during Language Arts, I sat with Lydia, Ned, Nat, and Raphael. I said that I have magnesium in me (a lot of it) and Nat asked, "So one day, you will spontaneously combust?" I replied yes. We laughed then Ned said he would want to see that. I know he doesn't like me that much, but I will try my best to make him not hate me, but have neutral feelings for me like Nat. Oh, I found this on You Tube, its funny. You know the guy from Muppets who helps the scientist and is prone to accidents, he sings Ode to Joy. At first you think everything is fine, but wait.....

It kind of....scares me a little bit. And now for the question of the post!

Who is your favorite Muppet??

I am Miserably Wired by the Evil Mocha

I HATE YOU EVIL MOCHA!!!!! DAMN YOU MOCHA!! DAMN YOU TO HELL!!! Why am I yelling in my blog post at mocha??? Well, Lydia had me drink coffee, and I hate coffee. I seriously loathe coffee, and now after tonight, I hate it even more. I am completely wired and tired, but I can't fucking sleep!!!! Why??? I am cursed, first I had two 4 karat gold earring backs stuck in my frigging earlobes, then Ned took my magnet (which magically appears by my stuff after volleyball practice) now this!!! Being a guinea pig for my own science fair project, drinking coffee and testing my blood pressure, I hate coffee and coffee hates me. My stomach feels weird and my throat burns, plus coffee tastes awful! I don't deserve it! And this is putting me in a terrible mood. I don't want to eat cause I think I might throw up, which I don't want happening. I am listening to music that would put me in a good mood, like this:

There are more songs, but I specifically chose this one since I listen to this song a lot on my fawesome iPod, which looks like this (its the nano, not the shuffle)

Isn't beautiful? Whenever I see my beautiful iPod, I feel better; but right now it won't help, the coffee is making me way too emotional, or I'm going insane. And that relates to my post question.

Is the coffee making me more emotional or am I just going crazy???

Did you know that the school nurse does surgery??

Guess what, I had the back of one of my earrings stuck in my ear, gross right? I found it while I was in the bathroom at volleyball practice. I looked in the mirror and saw something shiny, I totally freaked out about it; so I ran out and asked Mr.Hale (my volleyball coach) if I could go to the nurse's office, he asked why, I showed him my discovery. He got a super shocked face, then said, "Go to the nurse and ask her for help, if shes not there, contact your parents." I told him thank you and ran out the gym. I was scared, I was fucking scared. I ran up to the nurse's office and she was there (thank Athena) I showed her the damage and she got the tweezers out. She yanked the menacing piece of gold out of my ear, and it hurt like HELL, it was worse then piercing my ears, and that hurt. And that is how the school nurse saved my damaged ear from infections.

So to continue on about my day at school, I was shunned from my two best friends, Kaleigh and Lydia. I asked if I could sit with them and the new group they hang out with during lunch, they said there was no room. I asked them that in art, 2nd period; but when I sat alone at the lunch tabled, I saw a super crowded table, then Ai-San joined them. They welcomed her. Now that really hurt, I was shunned. I ended up eating alone and being alone during the whole lunch. I know that the friends who shunned me will be reading this, and you may yell at me or leave slightly mean comments defending you, but I sand by what I say. Please don't do that to me again, please.

Question of the post: If you were shunned by your best friend, what would you do?

Jelly Beans

Okay, i have no idea why I named this post "Jelly Beans" but it makes me happy cause I'm kinda disappointed in my school's society. Why am I kinda disappointed? Well, I know some students are nice people, and others, not so much. Okay, so yesterday I was waiting for my mom to get me from school and I was texting Kayleigh; so some guys were nearby and (I think) absolutely bored. They decided to through rocks at me, yes rocks. and random people asked me for money and thought I was rude for not giving any, WTF?!?!?!?!? Really people? But I am now going to talk about something happy!!! I'm going to see Alice in Wonderland with Lydia!!! It will be so much fun! :)) Now for my random question:

What are you disappointed in?????